This is a super random post.Let this post to end my March.

Ya, I wanna share abt my relationship this time.Of cos, I will definitely talk abt my period bf: )Abt my pubby love, my pubby love I been 2 year tgt with this guy call James when I was in primary school and age of 13.Hahas,funny right?Ya is funny,I can't remember how I feel that time and I dun really remember what's happen between both of us and how we broke up.Now I had lost contact with him for quite a while.So I dun call this as my first love.

My first serious relationship is when I was 16 and is with my so call first love bf -YiXiang.Ya,First Love.First saw, I fall in love type.All my close friends knew abt this guy,and they knew how crazy I over him.I can say abt him for 24h non-stop.I never regret being with him for 1 year 3 months. I ever dun bear to end this relationship but he chose to left me behind and go with other girl.I dun blame him for leaving me without a word,blame myself for not prefect enough: (Dun ask me why I love him so much I myself dun know too. Maybe all come with feeling?or maybe he totally cute: )I used more than a year to get over this guy but still not fully forget abt him.It really difficult to forget a person once you really love and some more he's my first love.He make my life so hard for that 1 year,he ever change he's hand phone no make me can't contact him.That time I know I'm totally lose him but I just dun dare to face it that he had leave me and he dun want me anymore and is a forever not ever being friend!1 year 3 months all the memory in my mind,wondering how is him now?Wondering did he still remember me when he see something that links to me?I guess no.This person totally just like a bird fly pass my side and I will never have the change to catch it back to my side again: )

After one month broke up with yixiang I did go in a relationship with this guy who call zhixiong.But I broke up with him after one month, the reason is 'I can't forget Yixiang'.I think I really hurt this guy very deep.But he never blame on me at all infact he never give up on me.Let me talk abt him later.

So being single for one year plus,I finally step out the dark room and try up another relationship with boonkiak.Those who got read my older blog should know abt him.Ya, a short time with him is only 3 month+ but to me the 3 months is seen like very long tgt with him .Let you know,this guy totally no reason and replace yixiang from my heart.I seriously love this guy once.He let me feel so much different being with yi xiang.He let me know what love actually like,but he also the one who bring me down the worst, he hurt me more than any guy do.I never expect thing turn out so badly to both of us.But forget and forgive will make my life better.So i dun hate him infact, I wanna thanks him for giving the chance to feel what real love is.And let me have a good prepare for my next relationship: )After being with him,I realise no matter is a big boy,small boy,men,gangster or even gay boy.When they come in to a relationship they are just like a baby.All they want is attention from their gf.But I fail to give this gay boy+gangster attention enough and make him think that I dun love him but actually once I love him more than everything.Everything!Well, everything come to a full stop after being with him for 3 month and 22 days.So,now me and him de relationship simply just a normal friend.All the best wish to him and hopefully wish he will change to be a mature and understanding men and not boy anymore: )

Back to zhixiong.I dun know why am I so stupid not falling in love with a guy who love me so much instead love a person who dun love me.Ya,aldult say love a people who love you more is better than love a person who you love more. And is so much more happiness being love.Because the person who love you will give you all the best that he could give just to see a smile on your face and of cos he will nv let you down. But until now,I still dun choose this guy who still love me after broke up with him for 15 month.Not cos I dun give him a chance,feeling not there.Force only will hurt a people more.Why must I a hurt a person?Why should he derserve the hurt.I dun want a nice guy get hurt because of me.I really hope he can find a nice girl who suit him.I know I will regret to miss away this guy but maybe this is all fate ba.If we really mean to be tgt then Im sure that the fate will come someday and make my mind change.Im sorry to you: (

For now I only want to spend my time with my family.sisters.brothers.work and of cos school: )

But sometime Crush come I can't denial.Anytime it will come.Wahahahas X )